Today was a busy stressful day for me. Firstly I missed 2 buses to get me to my appointment on time. Then I got to my appointment late to see my Pysch dr. Well I got there in painfully at 3.30pm and I was in total agony. She asked me how I'm going. I'm not doing as good as we hope. So she up'ed my anti- depressents and since I been sleeping alot she brought my epilum back down to 400mg per day. 100mg in the morning and 300mg at night. She said if I don't feel any better ring the clinic or go to ER. She asked me what a I worried about and I told her I'm worried about my husband's health that I'm scared it can get worse. I told her I struggling with keeping up with housework and cooking. She said she get my social worker to help get som support for me so I don't have to be under to much stress. She said if I don't look after my mental health then how can I be a proper carer to hubby.

Once I got out of appointment I sat in the clinic waiting for hubby and he didn't turn up so I went to the library and he weren't there. So I went to the closest phone and rang hubby on his mobile to find out where he is. So we met up at Big W. Then we went to have dinner at Hungry Jacks\Burger King and after that we went grocery shopping which cost us $90.

Well I'm home in agony. My right ankle and right lower back is killing me. I'm about to ring the Health Direct and see what they say.

Congrates Bob on winning biggest loser 2009!

Congrates Bob on winning Australia's Biggest Loser 2009! It great to see a Bunbury guy win!

I best get working on our renewals!

Hubby and I planning to renew our vows in October 2nd 2010. On my husbands 35th birthday. I absolutely done nothing to get it organized. It just under 18 months away. I seriously need to get my act together. I hope no one who read this don't mind talking about wedding lol. You be hearing it a fair bit till we say Ido again. So far we only have choosen where we going to hold the ceremony at Scarbough Beach. Because we both surfies. Hubby used to love surfing and I love going to the beach.

Well I'm going to go now and watch some telly.

Another beautiful sunny autumn(Fall) day here in Perth. Be a nice day to be outside instead of being stuck indoors. Pity I hate gardening though! I might do some washing today despite its 11.12am here. Nothing opened today since it ANZAC long weekend here.

Hubby wasn't doing so well last night. About 2am when I went to bed he said if I go to hospital would I come and I said no because I was drowsy from my medication. But I said you go and ring me on how you went. He said nope it to late and don't worry about it. I don't understand why he can't go by himself and I go often by myself. He doesn't need me to hold his hand 24\7 like a child. Aren't men big babies when they sick?

Well I best go and do some housework now!

Congrates Talia and anxiety!

Congrates Tahilia for winning 2009's SYTCD!

I hope all the best for your future!

I'm absolutely exhausted tonight. Don't know why I'm so tired. I know I'm not doing so well for the last few days with my mental health. It seemed to got worse on Tuesday night when I took my husband to hospital because he was in pain. They were going to admit him but he didn't want to stay in. His reason is because he had an interview on Thursday. Trust me I tried talking him into staying. While I was in hospital my anxiety level was going to sky high. I went to my mosiac class on Friday and asked if I can talk to my doctor and I said to the Receptionist to tell her that I'm not doing very well and my anxiety levels out of control. So she gave me some more seroqual and told me to come back on Wednesday this week. Most of the weekend so far I been sleeping all the time.

Sink still shiny but not the rest of the kitchen! Well since I didn't officially go to bed till 3.30am last night I slept in to 11.30am this morning. So all up I got 8 hurs and I'm still tired. My Pdoc. increased my seroqual during the day to 200mg so all up I'm having 500mg of seroqual. So to get used to my new dose, I know I'm going to be drowsy alot.

Hubby just basically went to the job and watched. He said they wanted him to see what he going to get himself in for. I don't think hubby told him about his health. Chances are he won't say anything. Also last night he still want to look through Quokka and keep looking for a house swap. He desperately want to get out of this area. I told him I think about it. Reason I'm not sure about it because we both got our hopes up for that house and it fell through also making dr's appointments to get the form filled out just to get told no. I don't want my husband's hopes up and be let down again. Well I'm going to lay down now and have a read.

GOOD NIGHT EVERYONE!

Well it officially 2.20am here and hubby came home from the job he going for. The manager wanted to let him see what he going through. It didn't put him off because he did kitchenhand before. I told him it completely different to Bakery work. Sizzlers is Hospitality work. Well he came home an hour ago. I'm getting tired now. So I'm logging off so I can go to bed.

Night everyone!

Need to lose weight before operation!

Well I desperately need to lose weight. I'm right now overweight and hate it. I got an operation coming up soon. The Surgeon want me to lose weight before hand. I'm susposed to be operated on in 2 weeks time but the Pysch dr I went to see didn't give them a letter to approve the operation. So I have to go back to the hospital in less than 6 weeks again and hopefully this time I can make a date to get the operation done.

Also I know I need to do it for my own health. My dr. is constantly on me about it. Feel free to give me tips to lose weight.